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when i see this video , im crying. my friend give this video for me of course with not subs , and i subs this video so why i late publish post because i must subs this video , i want subs video because i want all reader understand what songs this.... may be u will think i like girl , see this video and crying but i not crying because this video , but because this song . my friend give this video for me say to ms.x say good bye

i can't do this. when all people in my life say me to give up , i angry. i don't want give up. but today i listen from my mother , she want me give up , because my brother like my ms.x , she want me give ms.x to my brother. yeah.... i don't know why like this video , i not lie about my story , but its true. why all my brother want he got , but when i want dance my parents say no??? im so hurt , i hate my selft. after thinking this my body come back not good , doctor say i must rest my brain because how many problem im think when same time. my brain can't work if like this. but i don't know how to do if i at this situation....


i look the sky and tears come back drop from my eyes. i miss my ms.x so much. i can't control this felling . now nobody support me to come by to ms.x. my parents , my best friend , and other say to me for give up , search another girl or come back to michia. yeah they hope i can back to her because they think if i with her we like perfect couple. and i know michia still have felling to me , but i can't loving her anymore. she so pretty , have a good body , dancer , model , and how many else , she like a perfect girl. but i don't like her anymore. i not hate michia , but i now i just love my ms.x. ms.x not like michia , she not dancer , she not pretty but cute for me , she not have good body , she not enough good looking , and she just ordinary girl . but more than that reason i love her so much. if i can control this feeling may be i can love michia because she more that my ms.x but i can't control. so sorry for everyone who hope me come back to chia and give up from ms.x. because if i not with ms.x i think this tears will drop and i can't breath anymore , my life is ms.x.




my feeling today like this picture , not sun so dark... i hope sun will come and make my day colourfull