21 black jack shop
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
当你说你还爱我，我很高兴
我很高兴
我真的很高兴
但.....
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我不知道现在该做什么
我爱你，但不是这种不该发生的事情？
我很高兴
我真的很高兴
但.....
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我不知道现在该做什么
我爱你，但不是这种不该发生的事情？
let me know more about you
我第一次遇见你我的眼睛在盯着你的数字
自那时以来
我不能忘记你
你是第一次，它吸引了我
但影子 - 影子从我采取了你
我不明白为什么这一切发生
做永远等着你回来给我
讲的每一句话
我只能说我爱你....
finger pointing at one point there.
a point which will never lose when you go to the wishes of moving forefinger.
although sometimes you never know where the end point where it ends,
although sometimes you'll never know which way forefinger will move when you move the forefinger pointing to obey today.
though sometimes, occasionally I like to indulge my heart, do not want to go there.
however, a detour instead of me taking. because in the end I went back to the point of origin, and must choose the path that I'm supposed to take from the beginning.
little regret coming, because I waste my time.
a little regret, because I was far behind with kawananku.
little remorse, why should I fight arusku own.
a little regret, because in the end, here, I know, that I'm far behind you.
and finally, a little regret, because I always regret everything.
regret this because although there are, in the end I know,
way it should be like this.
little question, though I myself have found the answer.
because the liver is not able to accept, that way we are different.
The victory not the sign everything
the black jack shop
today my mood is not good. how many moment already past. how many meoment already make me more and more dunno who to do. i just crying alone. i don't know why i can't see the fact right now. i don't know see that. is not like me
reader , actually my team already lost in first match. first match is last week. is a first match black jack team boys. and tomorrow is second match black jack girl team. im join too with girl team , but just for to be michia couple dance. no more . is really really make me UPSET. i don't know what i to do righ now. today i not fokus when i practice dance so michia said to me to me go back to apartement and rest. she don't want see me practice again , when she said that she angry to me
i more upset she angry to me. i not good leader. yeah.... i already know from first , i can't to be leader and i suitable to be leader. im really really stupid want get this position. i don't have ability for take this position , i really really stupid. i already make my member team upset because a STUPID LEADER. i never like this before , is hard to me... i don't know what i to do righ now . i just want angry. just it
haruskah nama seseorang menjadi pertanda mengenal seseorang
mengetahui sesuatu
sudah lama kepasuan tak berwajah
kita sulit membedakannya
Require the name to become the sign had known someone to know something for a long time the falseness not have a face we have difficulty distinguishing him
-fay airos form past to the future-
21 the black jack shop 'check this out'
when i write this is really really morning... 03.50 singapore time. last night i get sleeping 24.30. and you can count how many time i spend for sleeping. i can't sleep no more.i don't know why i come like this. i thinking how many problem when same time. is make my condition is not good. but after 2 days i rest full with shopping , playing with my friend , make my condition is not to be better. i think is not work. my friend said to me if i shopping , playing or other , my condition will better. but i don't think like that. this make me frustaration.
i more like key shinee hair style. i already ask my friend if i have hair like this how come , she said so far if you don't try you don't know how come you if you have hair like this. nice comment. after this competition i think i want cut my hair and make my hair like this
to his body clothes of only of his falseness
mus only be naked honest against himself
why naked precisely is banned?
pada tubuhnya pakaian hanya kepalsuan
ia hanya perlu telanjang
jujur terhadap dirinya sendiri
mengapa telanjang justru dilarang?
-fay airos-
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hi reader , how are you today? i hope you good , and i hope you more like reader my blog. today i already finish make present for my girl friend. i make this before i arrive at singapore. its not hard for me , make this present. i know may be girl always make this present for her boy friend. but i want give this to my girl friend. but after i finish make this , my friend talk to me , to not give this present to my girl friend , because may be she will shock , beacue my girl friend now not really know about me like my ex girl friend. really upset listen my friend comment. so i don't give this to my girl friend. i just take carefully this present , i don't want thorw away this present , because i made this is not easy.
i buy this for my mother , i hope she will like . karen said my mother will happy if i give this to be present , and i hope she right. she never wrong about what item i must give to girl
may be my friend right , if i give this present my girl friend will miss uderstand to me , she not know well me
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
밤에 혼자의 고독
강도에 대한 검색 수행
내 모든 희망이 죽을 듯했다
내 눈은 울어 더 이상 눈물을했다
태양 위에서 빛나고가 다음과 같은
당신은 당신의 끝없는 사랑이 나를 둘러
내가 볼 수없는 사촌 모든 것들이 지금 내게 너무 좋다
당신은 내 전부에요
아무것도 당신의 사랑을 가지고하지 않습니다
내 인생은 당신 혼자가
단지 난 아는 사랑
당신의 정신을 통해 나를 밀어 내는것
하면 아무 것도 할 것입니다
매일 밤 난기도
bended 무릎
당신이 항상있을 것입니다
내 모든 것을
이제 내 모든 희망이 내 모든 꿈
갑자기 현실입니다
기분에 내 가슴을 활짝 열었습니다
사랑의 종류 진정한 진짜 예요
불빛이 사라지지 않는거야
거기에 인생 건 내가 본 거래는 아니 고요
당신에게 사랑을 놓지 않을 것입니다
난 항상 너에게 알아 보시기 바랍니다
당신은 내 전부에요
아무것도 당신의 사랑을 가지고하지 않습니다
내 인생은 당신 혼자가
단지 난 아는 사랑
당신의 정신을 통해 나를 밀어 내는것
하면 아무 것도 할 것입니다
매일 밤 난기도
무릎
당신이 항상있을 것입니다
내 모든 것을
당신은 나에게 생명의 숨결이야
유일하게 내게 자유를 세트
그리고 당신은 완전한 내 영혼을 만들었습니다
모든 시간 모든 시간 ()에 대한
당신은 내 전부에요 (당신은 내 전부에요)
아무것도 당신의 사랑 (아무것도 당신의 사랑을 가지고되지 않습니다)를 가져오지 마라
내 인생은 홀로 (혼자) 당신입니다
단지 난 아는 사랑
당신의 정신을 통해 (당신의 영혼을 통해) 나를 밀어 내는것 나를 밀어 내는것
하면 아무 것도 할 것입니다 (아무 것도 할 때 예정)
기도 (기도를 매일 밤)
무릎이 내 무릎 (한국 시간)에
당신이 항상있을 것입니다
내 모든 것이
매일 밤 난기도
아래 무릎에
당신이 항상있을 것입니다
내 전부
오, 내 전부
강도에 대한 검색 수행
내 모든 희망이 죽을 듯했다
내 눈은 울어 더 이상 눈물을했다
태양 위에서 빛나고가 다음과 같은
당신은 당신의 끝없는 사랑이 나를 둘러
내가 볼 수없는 사촌 모든 것들이 지금 내게 너무 좋다
당신은 내 전부에요
아무것도 당신의 사랑을 가지고하지 않습니다
내 인생은 당신 혼자가
단지 난 아는 사랑
당신의 정신을 통해 나를 밀어 내는것
하면 아무 것도 할 것입니다
매일 밤 난기도
bended 무릎
당신이 항상있을 것입니다
내 모든 것을
이제 내 모든 희망이 내 모든 꿈
갑자기 현실입니다
기분에 내 가슴을 활짝 열었습니다
사랑의 종류 진정한 진짜 예요
불빛이 사라지지 않는거야
거기에 인생 건 내가 본 거래는 아니 고요
당신에게 사랑을 놓지 않을 것입니다
난 항상 너에게 알아 보시기 바랍니다
당신은 내 전부에요
아무것도 당신의 사랑을 가지고하지 않습니다
내 인생은 당신 혼자가
단지 난 아는 사랑
당신의 정신을 통해 나를 밀어 내는것
하면 아무 것도 할 것입니다
매일 밤 난기도
무릎
당신이 항상있을 것입니다
내 모든 것을
당신은 나에게 생명의 숨결이야
유일하게 내게 자유를 세트
그리고 당신은 완전한 내 영혼을 만들었습니다
모든 시간 모든 시간 ()에 대한
당신은 내 전부에요 (당신은 내 전부에요)
아무것도 당신의 사랑 (아무것도 당신의 사랑을 가지고되지 않습니다)를 가져오지 마라
내 인생은 홀로 (혼자) 당신입니다
단지 난 아는 사랑
당신의 정신을 통해 (당신의 영혼을 통해) 나를 밀어 내는것 나를 밀어 내는것
하면 아무 것도 할 것입니다 (아무 것도 할 때 예정)
기도 (기도를 매일 밤)
무릎이 내 무릎 (한국 시간)에
당신이 항상있을 것입니다
내 모든 것이
매일 밤 난기도
아래 무릎에
당신이 항상있을 것입니다
내 전부
오, 내 전부
yeah... today im so happy... very very happy because my best friend already arrive at singapore. surprise? of course im surprice... i don't know when she arrive , after i back from jogging time , i get her at apartement. hahahaha im so happy :)
my spirit come back , i think not too much. but better than yesterday. i hope today will better than today. i hope how many important people to me will always support me. because i not like now without they. thx for all my best friend who give me strong for do this , for alex without you i never have change to dance , so thx thx so much , thx you want teach me dancing and how important dancing to me .
thx to max , my best friend someboday who one always beside me and support me .without you i not like now , may be i don't have confidence to take this position. and max don't like me okay , im still like girl wahahah kiddink
michia thx for you attention to me , thx to your support , thx to participe to join with my dance team , thx to make me more strong and make me grow up , big thx to you michia. you know how many times i make your heart hurt , how many times i make you crying , how many times i make you upset , dissapoin and how many times im give you fake chance , but you want still want to be my best friend . thx michia. i don't know how i am now if without you , you teach me how many thing from live to love. but so sorry i can't give my love again for you.
my ex girl friend . sorry readder i don't tell you who is my ex girl friend. i don't have enough power to tell you about my ex girl friend. thx to my ex girl friend , who one teach me how important love , family , dance for me. may be you more young than me , but i think you really really amazing. you teach me how many things. you make me more stronger. anyway thx for you supporting yesterday , its make me wanna hug you. ps : i never let you go , maybye i loser but in my heart you still important to me
thx for my bao baei who want support me. so sory i can't give my love pure for you , i love you but i still love my ex girl friend. so sorry if this comment make you upset . but i don't want lie you , its a reallty. i don't know how long i like this . im sorry to you , big sorry to you. im am bad boy right???
and big thx GOD. you always beside me. i know withou YOU , i know like this.
nb : i not at this picture because i picture i take by your self, fiuh... not someone take a picture all member want take a picture , so im leader must take a picture for make my all member happy , and they are so happy . T_T kekekeke
hi reader how are you today? i hope you answer i today very good , or today im very happy. i really really you have answer like that. today , for me is my bad day.... why???? check this out
my upset day.... is about THE BLACK JACK. i upset because my self. i think i can't to be a good leader. i know i not alex. and i never can't to be like him. because i and alex is different type person. he have good leadership and i don't have that. i still learning.
because that im upset. i think can't do this. i think can't make this team a greet team. how many people support me. my members team support me too but its not enough. some part of my heart can't believe i will be make this team a greet team. i don't know why.
im very upset. everyday we together practice , actually is better. but i think something lost at my team. i don't know what is that , im still searching what part is lost in my team. when i see they dancing , i still have comment is not good for performing.
actually before i sleep yesterday. i thinking about quit from my position and i give to my friend. i still love to be member than to be leader. how many problem you meet if you to be leader , and i can't do it.
i already work hard , but its not enough , i not good enough to be leader. im must still practice. i don't want make my team dissapoint because me. i don't want , but i don't know how to make my team pround? i really really confused about this... GOD HELP ME TO DO THE BEST
hi reader! how are you today??? im hope you fine. today i very very tired. im practice dancing from 07.00 until 19.00 , 12 hours and just practice dancing. yeah i with my crew dance from now practice dancing. i want more serious and more practice , because we will join competition 22 december.
this my first team. i never thinking i will have a team. this team have 9 members. this name is the black jack. black jack is my when im dance. black jack have mean 21. this name card play. i love this name , so i name my first group with my name.
anyway reader , this is my first time i to be leader , that mean is my first crew. i little nervous because is my first time i to be leader. actually i never get this position. before i just to be member , alex is leader. when i get this position i don't know how i do first. i really really nervous. how many plan like lost at my head. i don't know why i can become like this. i dont believe my self , i don't believe if i can be good leader like alex. because i and alex si so big big different. but because my member , my friend , my ex girfriend say i can do it , i will try to the best for this.
this is first time i think i will lose. i know i must have positive thinking , but after 1 week i at singapore looking dancer at here , they so greet dancer. i never lose before. i alway to be winner at jakarta. im not want to be arrogant. but i never lose before. i know the reason i never know how about lose feeling is because alex. alex make him dancer so greet.
before i don't want take this position. but alex can't help , because when this competition star he join competition too at kl. so he not take this competition. but because i promesi to someone who important to me , so i take this. i hope i to do better i can. and i more hope she will happy i can't make new group. this my first group and i will work hard for this group. i don't want just win but i want my member have good moment when we join this competition. yeah i know win is important but not very important. the most important for this competition is moment when you with you friend practice together to be a better. not win for me. and i hope i can make this team my frist good team and my last team. because after this competition i will quit from vertigo crew , and i want college at hardward university. i never want say good by to dance but this time for i fokus to my future. i will not forever life just like boy right?
ps: picture for my team i will upload soon
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
hi reader! how are you today? i hope you fine. eum... how about you xmast day? you make party? or something? if you make party or something , tell me , i want know. in xmast day i make party , go for clubbing , of course i go to church before. and my friend give me sweater to me. Bape sweater , i like this icon so much. so im so happy when i get this present. this preset from black jack member. actually i have how many present from my friend , but i most like this present , because this present from black jack member. is touch for me. anyway how your xmast present? i hope you like with your present.
i don't like this picture , because i really really small than other in this picture
my friend ask to me for i singing chrismast song in front of many people , really really shy , because i often singin in fron of many people , i more like singing at bathroom alone ^^
that picture is really really new... i take that picture eum... 25 december. hahahaha already see my new hair style?? yeap... im change my hair colur to purple , like key right? i really really want have key hair style , but i must wait until next year no long right?
more than team
during the roughly 3 weeks when we first cam to singapore , we really were lonely. that loneliness we felt at first turned into anger later , though there isn't a reason why. and to be honest , the members' relationships with each other becaome not very good . but on the coutrary it is true that when we overcame that period , the bnd between the black jack member of us grew even deeper
this time 19.47 singapore time , all member still prepare for performent tonight at zouk , michia and girl member busy to make up boy member. yeah tonight we have consept spooky eyes with dracula outifil edward cullen wanna be. i not like this consept , because i think i don't match with this consept , but all member think this a best consept so i don't have reasson to not like this idea.
that picture is michia.when i buy some food with her i get that wallpaper . so i think is cute if she pose like in front of that wallpaper , and that result from my capture...what do you think reader? i think is uniq picuter...humph... xD
st james power station
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st james power station the biggest clubbing at singapore
hi reader...
good morning all is 7.61 singapore time. im still at singapore until new years because i must have performent at sentosa island for new years parides. eum... i really really want sleeping again , after write this i want come back sleep xD. i get up today because i get new call from st james power station manager... she want we performent at there for 1 month . she want we performent every week end at january full... she already watching we perfoment at singapore dance comeptition yesterday , and shey like , seh tell to me we have ability for to do more and more. i want tell about this to all member , but they still sleep. i want ask you reader. how about you comemnt about this problem? i can't make choce right nowi need you comment reader...
anyway tonigh i will go to zouk...if you at singapore , meet me at there. wanna see im dance??? see at zouk tonight and tomorrow , i will dance at there from 23.00 until 01.00 , x-mast day with party...hahahaha...
hoam..... im really really sleeping , i will write again after i get up okay... i upload some picture st james power station...
hi reader im fay come back. hahahaaha sorry for make you worried. sorry for my girl friend already make you upset , sorry for all my reader for broken you hope to me , and i want make so sorry really really sorry to the black jack member , sorry all i not a good leader for you. i can't make you all go to be winner... so sorry...
actually 19 december i join at battle dance competition , with b-boys singapore. ah for info , in this comeptition the black jack member have 2 group , fist group is for b - boy comepetition and all man the black jack member join in first group. and second group is modern dance competition not all man the black jack member join , only half from all man the black jack member
19 december i first comeptition already star. first match we lost. okay i don't know why we lost. we already practice , we already prepare all for long time ago . we don't need winner but i don't thinking in first match we will lost , is is....ah SHIT! i really really dissapoint . when i listen about result , i tell to all member and i go away. i not go back until 22 december. im so shy to meet black jack member. i think i not useful. how come i to be leader? im is really really babo leader.
22 december...
my mood is not good. all member just quite , no one ask to me for something. my condition is not good. im flue and i not eat very good. yeah... i think i will sick and im really really sick. im little fever plus im drink yesterday. is make my condition more not good. but i don't tell to somebody about my condition. we match 11.00 , is second match for second group. because something match pending and match will star 13.00
i don't go anywhere. i just sit at waiting room. all member go to eat or something. i don't as to everyone , i verry - verry shy. actually id on't wnt meet them , but i don't make this more upset because i not join in this comeptition. ah you can call me loser or something. but really this my first match im lost , i never lost before. and you know is so hurt , more hurt than i listen from mouth my exgirl friend 'dont meet me again'.
i don't know how to fell lost , and right now how fell lost. is not good. really really not good. but i want thx to GOD , make me know how feel if i lost. i don't think i lost from other team. i lost from my self. and i hate this. why i say i love from my self not from other team? because i don't make this team good enough. i just make they practice. i forget to make they remember if we join in this match not because we want win but because we love dance , and we can't live without dance . yeah i forget to make they remember how important dance to them...
before match star i get something , something make me want cry and smile in smile in same time...is a testimonial from the black jack member. i really really don't know they will make this for me. is not pretty , they just write testimonial in brosur paper. how come they right testimonial for a leader just in brosur paper??? is really really curios hahahaha xD , but i love this testimonial so much...
this testimonial from the black jack member , not all i write , just 3 testimonial.
to : fay the really really babo leader
from : michia the most sexy girl
i don't think you really really babo leader , but after see you at singapore , ah i think you really really babo leader. first i meet you i really upset because you don't not like a man who i love so much until now (for fay girlfriend , so sorry if i say like this , until now i still love fay , i hope he back to me , but he don't wan back to me . because he already choce you for to be him girl friend i will say you reall really luck girl 'she tell to me when i ask i want upload some testimonial'). but after first meet in singapore , and after i tell you how improtant dance to you , you really really cahnge. you more like leader , yeah for 21 you only leader. you know when you dissaper after you know result , we really really curios. we must know we know angry to you because we lost , but we will sad if we make you broke. for 21 member you more than leader , you must know about it .
sarangheyo babo leader....
to : fay
from : rendy
i join with same group with you. i join in 21 member because i want shopping at singapore. from frist i not practice good , i always lazy , i always late if you ask to practice , i always want go back to home quickly. but you never angry to me , actually i want you angry to me. more you patient i more don't like. you really really good leader , more than alex than me. actually you and alex is different people. you always want to be like alex , i know he is a good leader , but alex is not you , and you not alex , you must have uniq style. don't think you must like alex. for me you a good readder. and i want say sorry , sorry for long time ago i not practice very good . this team lost because me , i don't serious in this match. and when you gone i really really upset , i don't you upset , because you can't feel like this.
to : fay
from : wendy
i always remember you always come to practice dance early , and after we finish practice dance you still practice. you always get up early go jogging for make you body good , you not eat meat for long time ago. you use barbel at you hand and you foot for make you dance more good . how many thing you do for this campetition. and i don't do anything. so sorry , your gone is my mistake. dont think you a reasson this team lost . this team lost because we not serious. we want say sorry for that. and i hope i have change for next time join with same team like this. the black jack team is increnable team , and i never forget moment when we together practice , shopping , talk about concept , dancing cheap dance , and many more.
I NEVER FORGET THIS FOREVER AND EVER
from : michia the most sexy girl
i don't think you really really babo leader , but after see you at singapore , ah i think you really really babo leader. first i meet you i really upset because you don't not like a man who i love so much until now (for fay girlfriend , so sorry if i say like this , until now i still love fay , i hope he back to me , but he don't wan back to me . because he already choce you for to be him girl friend i will say you reall really luck girl 'she tell to me when i ask i want upload some testimonial'). but after first meet in singapore , and after i tell you how improtant dance to you , you really really cahnge. you more like leader , yeah for 21 you only leader. you know when you dissaper after you know result , we really really curios. we must know we know angry to you because we lost , but we will sad if we make you broke. for 21 member you more than leader , you must know about it .
sarangheyo babo leader....
to : fay
from : rendy
i join with same group with you. i join in 21 member because i want shopping at singapore. from frist i not practice good , i always lazy , i always late if you ask to practice , i always want go back to home quickly. but you never angry to me , actually i want you angry to me. more you patient i more don't like. you really really good leader , more than alex than me. actually you and alex is different people. you always want to be like alex , i know he is a good leader , but alex is not you , and you not alex , you must have uniq style. don't think you must like alex. for me you a good readder. and i want say sorry , sorry for long time ago i not practice very good . this team lost because me , i don't serious in this match. and when you gone i really really upset , i don't you upset , because you can't feel like this.
to : fay
from : wendy
i always remember you always come to practice dance early , and after we finish practice dance you still practice. you always get up early go jogging for make you body good , you not eat meat for long time ago. you use barbel at you hand and you foot for make you dance more good . how many thing you do for this campetition. and i don't do anything. so sorry , your gone is my mistake. dont think you a reasson this team lost . this team lost because we not serious. we want say sorry for that. and i hope i have change for next time join with same team like this. the black jack team is increnable team , and i never forget moment when we together practice , shopping , talk about concept , dancing cheap dance , and many more.
I NEVER FORGET THIS FOREVER AND EVER
i really really touched because all testimonial. righ now i don't think i must fokus to my upset but i must fokus to future right? thx for all.... thx......
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